Resolution

 

A perfect duet on this last day of 2021. A reminder of things that didn't work out and the hope for better days ahead.  To make room for those things and events hoped for I have to let go of old thoughts and feelings.

I have been paying closer attention to those thoughts that don't serve me. When I think of how others are acting or how they have done me wrong, then I am giving my energy to them. I going to work on conditioning that mindset and hopefully keep more of my energy for me, not wasted on clueless others.

The Gaian Tarot

Alignment

 Mental energy is just as important as physical readiness when making plans for what's ahead - 2022.  Getting my mind set in anticipation for new adventures ahead makes all the difference.  Last year at this time I consulted horoscopes and the cards to try to anticipate 2021, not this year.  I am going to face the new year with my happy face and happy feet and enjoy myself as much as possible.

Gaian Tarot

Permission given

 

If I could turn my head I would be looking this way and that trying to find my way. This teacher says forget all that and sit and get quiet and all things will find there way to me. Interesting.

"When I run after what I think I want, my days are a furnace of stress and anxiety; if I sit in my own place of patience, what I need flows to me and without pain. From this I understand that what I want also wants me, is looking for me and attracting me. There is a great secret here for anyone that can grasp it." - RUMI

The Gaian Tarot

Hard knock opportunity

 

This image of an Eight of Swords is in sharp contrast to the typical image of a woman bound up in her own self imposed restrictions. We can sort through or stumble through those challenging days or decisions. Talking about it can help with perspective but sometimes we just need to experience the hard knocks of Life. Either way it gives us the opportunity to reevaluate ourselves, our choices, our way forward.

The Gaian Tarot

Sidelined

 

My body threw me a curve ball several months ago and since I have been sitting on the sidelines of my life. Waiting to heal. Waiting for the next doctor's appointment. Waiting to reschedule my knee surgery. Waiting. It is a uncomfortable place to be, waiting. Life is more than waiting. Once you get stuck there dreams and plans can become scattered and lost.  I just read a friend's inspirational post "Always Have Something To Look Forward To." A truly great motto.  Time for me to re-engage in my adventure.

The Gaian Tarot

A - New

 

I have over thought things most of my life, allowing my analytical nature to guide me. At this juncture in my days I can criticize myself for those choices or congratulate myself that I have made it this far. I have followed my intuition on occasion, but mostly let thought direct me. As I have gotten older I have more of a tendency to get out of my head and to trust my feelings and follow my inner promptings.  A new way of tending to the days of my life.

The Gaian Tarot ~ Joanna Powell Colbert

Sacred Mountain

 

Answers can be found on the Sacred Mountain. Reminds me of line in a John Denver song about posing your question to the mountain and waiting for the answer to come back around. I am the Great Mystery in my life and I wonder if a trip to the Mountains might be just what I need.  Not at Christmas when it is cold and snowy, but in August when the Perseids Meteor Shower is very visible and then I can experience  falling star light while I wait for my answer to come back from the echo of the mountain.

Bright Blessings at Christmas

Think I will listen to John Denver songs instead of Christmas music today.

Native Spirit Oracle Cards ~ Denise Linn

Can't shake it

 

A recurring theme in my dreams is my missing car. Occurs quite often. Early in the morning hours another one. I drove to this camp/homestead place following someone to the location, went in and when I decided it was time to leave, went out to parking lot and vehicle is gone.  I even said it in my dream, "why do my cars/vehicles keep disappearing?" I knew I was dreaming and asked why am I having this recurring situation in different scenarios? This dream continued on in a jumble of images ending with me climbing and jumping a fence because 'they' wanted to further immobilize me by putting spikes through my feet and burning the bottom of them as well.  Where does the mind come up with such images and schemes?  Anyway I got up and wrote down the whole thing and thoughts on it all. To draw this card this morning calls my attention back to dream.  I may have solved the mystery of the disappearing vehicles with my two hours of analyzing and journaling.  

Native Spirit Oracle

The Search

 

It is that time of year that I question myself if I am in the tribe of choice.  Forward thinking of a new year ahead I wonder if I should not go in search for a community that is more like minded.  Looking at this card I think of the movie "Dances with Wolves." John Dunbar a lieutenant in the US Army, heads west to the frontier; he realizes he does not belong in the army nor fighting a war. He eventually finds his place of belonging with a local Lakota tribe. 

There can be a lot of risk and uncertainty in searching for what we maybe searching for.  

Native Spirit Oracle Cards

Great Mystery

 

Me. I am the Great Mystery to me. 

See what the day reveals.

Native Spirit Oracle

A New Story

 

After yesterday's post and the question posed of 'what are we calling to ourselves'  I recalled some of the hurts and slights encountered and tolerated throughout this last year. Those thoughts had me remembering also others from years past. My heart gave me a wake up call this year reminding me to let go of regret, shame, and fear, all of it was and is clogging up my channels of Life's flow in my body. The Stories we tell ourselves are our reality. Today will be a good day to write them down and toss them on the flame of The Winter's Solstice. Letting them go and releasing what I can, making room for the new in the Year ahead. Time to write me a new story.

Native Spirit Oracle Cards

Causality

 

Causality: the relationship between cause and effect.  

What are we calling to ourselves with our laments or questions? New ideas can be the answer to old questions or problems, but before action, consideration is advised.  We are the instrument of our own change. 

I am forward thinking today. 2022!  Mindful of what I call to myself.   Not too much caution, because I want to be open and available to new opportunities, but cautious to what opportunities present themselves. 

Native Spirit Oracle ~ Denise Linn

For today

 

Sun is out today, after clouds and rain all day yesterday.  No glimpse of Full Moon last, hopefully this evening.  The Sun rises so low in the Southern Sky during this time of year. 9.5 hours of daylight with the low southern arc. I will take the promise of today's sunlight and hold that promise close for the longer and warmer days ahead.  You got take what you can get when you can get it. Won't get much above freezing today with promises of sixty degrees on Christmas day. Enjoy each and everyday just as it is.  

Native Spirit Oracle ~ Denise Linn

Step Right Up

 

I am aware of the waning daylight in each of these days as we approach the Winter's Solstice. The Wheel turns as we enter the quiet time of the year, Winter.  Today presents us with a Full Moon.  We are so close to the shortest day of the year, I realize that this will be the longest viewing of a Full Moon in the Year with such a long night ahead of us. Full of mystery and magic, I wonder what will my spin on The Wheel reveal to me today under the light of the Silvery Full Moon? 

The Enchanted Forest Tarot

Red please

 I wonder if this is a future vision of me in the 'Red Cloak' I am going to purchase and wear?  Interesting. Sometimes you just don't know where the inspiration you seek will come from. 

Mixing things up a bit, tomorrow morning I am going to a local salon and have tinsel twined in my hair. I think I will ask the gal to make it predominately red tinsel. 

The Enchanted Forest Tarot

Red cloak

 

I had a dream the other morning upon waking that troubles me and questions my thoughts and perceptions of life as I know it; some of the hows and whys?  Spending time with this card this morning I am asking myself, during my trip through the Enchanted Forest, where has my venture brought me thus far?  I looked back at the word venture. just typed, and wonder why not 'adventure' which really gives me pause for thought. Has my life been more venture than adventure?  If so, what do I need to change and will I call forth my Strength and Courage to be more adventurous as I continue though the Enchanted forest of my life?

Red is not a color I choose for me, but I think a red cloak is in order. Something different and vibrant for me.

The Enchanted Forest

What lies beneath

 All kinds of actions lie beneath the veneer we present to the world. Chaos, wonderment, anxiety, joy, fear, love, envy, all that and more. Much of who and what we are, are unknown to others and somewhat to ourselves. Like a river, our surface looks the same on most days, but the eddies and currents, the debris and deadwood that travels beneath are turbulent troubles. We work with what we have, but that can change with the video clips from our mind.

Why are the dwarves beards and hair not afire?  What magic keeps the sparking forges from casting flames to burn them?

The Enchanted Forest

Muted

 

Awe struck. I am speechless in the presence of this White Wizard Queen. So long has she lived in this section of the Enchanted Forest there is a permanent path worn between the the white birches.  The thorn bush and herself block the way into her white wonderland. Do I or you even want to enter? Do I really want to know the answers to my questions? If asked I must listen, this Queen of Swords warns. 

The Enchanted Forest Tarot

Cosmic connection

 

When you seemingly get lost and drift into confusion, take a moment and sit beneath the stars. Timeless with their light and beauty, reminding me/us that there is light in darkness. There is magic to be gathered under the open sky of starlight; we are reminded that we are made of the same cosmic energy of the stars.

The Enchanted Forest

That way vs This way

 

It is so easy to become and stay complacent in our day to day lives. We know what to do and the how and whys and just plod along.  I recently read an article about how to help move ourselves from the level of our predictability. Instead of doing the same thing day in and day out, change it up.  Yesterday I tried using my left hand more often. I did my daily exercise routine starting with my left side and changing the rotation of moves. I used a completely different route to my sister's home.  Doing that instead of this. It was a bit unsettling and I had to spend more time doing things in my day to day, but I was also more aware of what I was doing. The Eight of Pentacles/Boon challenges us to become better at what we do. Cross training my brain will help me move from the familiar and predictable to something more...

The Enchanted Forest Tarot

Unexpected Finds

 

Some of the most magical things and experiences are unexpected discoveries. 

The Enchanted Forest Tarot

Unicorn

 

Sometimes you just have to spend quiet time admiring the vision before you. Unicorns so rare and unique. 

I feel a bit like a unicorn these days. As I age I am a changeling. I think myself unique, mostly because I am not quite the same gal as I was before.  Yet I am reminded that many have made the transition to their crone years. My journey is unique to me and I can give myself permission to be a Unicorn and celebrate with all the other changelings in the forest.

The Enchanted Forest Tarot

An apple a day

 

The other day at the grocery store I was choosing some apples when a  shorter than me man just to my right said, "an apple a day keeps the doctors away." I turned slightly to reply "that's what they say" and as I turned back to place my apple selections in my bag and turned again, he was gone.  Very good advice given from a magical King of Pentacles in Krogers the other day. 

I enjoy apples and have several every week, that changed the other day.  When given that kind of suggestion, you take heed and adhere.

Reminds of me of several quotes.  Recently from Deepak Chopra "the solution never comes from the level of the problem"

Albert Einstein "No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it."

Advice from a couple more Kings of Pentacles.

The Enchanted Forest Tarot

It's a Sign!

 

After stepping through the magical doorway yesterday and not really sure if the correct choice was made, I encountered these three dancing bears. All misgivings vanish from my mind. Surely it is a sign.  Laughter bubbles up and I want to throw caution to the window and jump in and dance with them.  They may not appreciate being startled so I will laugh and clap with glee and move along.  Not everyday on the path will be so magical, but I will remember to enjoy myself along the way. 

The Enchanted Forest

Opportunity awaits

 

Decisions, decisions, decisions. This is a bit more complicated than a crossroads. Once you step through a magical door, the others disappear and doors seem to close once you enter. How does one choose? And of course when you are talking about a magical portal, best choose wisely. A pause is warranted to study and contemplate. I wonder if I approach each door and lay my hand upon the magical sigal inscribed on the doors if some information of what is beyond might be relayed.  The only incorrect choice here would be not to choose.  Good thing I have a pocket full of cookies to munch on while I consider.

Open the door and let me in.

The Enchanted Forest Tarot

Trust the process

 

Another day in a forest, this one beneath the sea. Definitely getting the vibe to spend time in open the wonderlands of Nature. Too much time indoors is not good for the soul.  This Queen of Cups belongs to wherever she is at the moment. To be in the moment, that's where I belong. 

The Enchanted Forest Tarot

That was no dream, but a memory

 

In that soft place between sleep and awake I drifted into a memory. A crossroads where my life shifted and then a path taken into a different direction. How many places have I made turns taken that have lead me to where and who I am today? That choice forty years ago would have shaped me into a much different person than I am today, or would it have?  The memories of yesteryears are much softer than the harshness of reality.  My journey through the forest has been much different than the dreams I had. 

Every time I spend time with this deck it has my heart longing to go and live in the forest and spend my crone years connecting with the earth. To listen with my heart and not my mind to the rhythm of Gaia's heartbeat. To dance in my bare feet and fall down after twirling. Ahh, my dancing and twirling days are behind me, but I can take a walk through my dreams of possibilities.

The Enchanted Forest Tarot~ Luna Weatherstone

Delays

 Delays can be frustrating, well not all of them. This gal is planting a tree and yet in all likelihood will not live to see it at it's full growth. See doesn't do it for her good but the good of the ecology of the forest and the world.  I have been off-putting my life and my own investment in my days. The fear factor took hold after my cardiac event and I have placed myself in a wait-and-see mode.  A happy life is made up of happy days. Simple intentions will lead to more fulfilling days. It is up to me to begin with one of those simple intentions and re-engage in my life. That will be the return of my investment. 

The Gaian Tarot

Transits

 

On a drive the other day I noticed that all the trees were bare; a very blustery day finished that last holdouts. Sadden by the starkness of the leafless trees that have withdrawn into their winter hibernation, I also appreciated the openness of the landscape revealed by the barren trees. I counted in my head the months till I hopefully will be able to see the returning of the green with Spring's arrival. Always in transition, the Earth and me with Her.

The Gaian Tarot

Mountain top view

 

December 1, another year getting ready to complete itself. And here I am still trying to figure things out; sorting through my wisdom and worries.  This Queen of Swords is giving me that look. What that look is will take sometime to figure out the question behind it. 

Sometimes I just want to say "okay, out with it, just give me the answers" but in truth I have always been the seeker of my own answers. Life is our classroom.

The Gaian Tarot

No Lingering Allowed

 

We all find ourselves here from time to time. And yes we are allowed the time to grieve, and cry, and piss and moan. Then comes the point we have to move on. The sorrow will be a part of us always, and shapes the way we move forward, but move forward we must.  

The Gaian Tarot

The mirror has two faces

An old childhood trauma has resurfaced in my awareness; something I thought I had have forgiven and reframed in my memories. A somewhat casual remark the other day by a family member triggered the awareness that the incident indeed is not forgotten, or reframed, or released. It still hurts and is still, these fifty-seven years later upsetting.  The balance I thought I had secured within me is out of kilter. The mirror of my awareness has two faces.

The Gaian Tarot

Sun-day

 

Hopeful that the drawing of The Sun today is an omen for a turn for the good with this little cold that wants to take hold.  Though chilly with a forecast in the low forties today, there should be clear and sunny skies. I think I will find a spot by the window and soak up those lovely rays and hope they chase away the sniffles.  

The Gaian Tarot

Meow to Roar

 

Today may be a really good day to gather myself and my some new ideas and thoughts that have begun to take hold and figure out what needs to happen next. Focus that great energy of new thought patterns and put some emotional ump behind them and sort out the details. The new year is within sight. 

Baby kitties can become big wonderful cats.

Small ideas can blossom into wonderful futures.

The Gaian Tarot

Possibilities

 

There are times we can become so focused, enchanted with the way things are, we forget to be open to the all possibilities that are around us. The World as well as ourselves are a wonder worth exploring. I am looking forward to my day with all the promises it offers.

The Gaian Tarot

Bright Blessings

 

Today I am Thankful.

Most days I am. Every little thing I am going to try to be thankful today. It is raining, so I am very thankful it is not snow. I am going to my brother's place, for Thanksgiving dinner and I am thankful for family time and all the bounty on his table, and I don't have to cook a bit of it. My sister-in-law won't allow me any time in her kitchen so I am thankful I don't have to do dishes.  There is Kitty. Electricity to heat my home, Lights to read by and to warm the water at the ready at the sink. Thankfully there are those that work at the companies that get the electricity and water delivered to my home. Clothes and cute socks for my feet. A refrigerator and shelves with food handy for my taking. Customers that chose me to help them with their decision to move, so I have currency to take care of my home and needs. So much more; the list spirals out into eternity.   Happy Thanksgiving

Last night, Today

 

I had an uncomfortable, reveling two-part dream last night. There was betrayal of trust, loss of faith, and the second-part, retribution. Watching the reel of the dream I realized all the participants were supposed to be facets of me. The little things I do to myself that undermine me, and then the mind revealing thoughts of how I punish myself with the antics I participate in, mostly in my thoughts. I wonder if indeed, I have been my own best and worst enemy, per se?  I guess I can dwell on all those missteps and continue to focus on regret or for once in all just let it go and move on. A valuable lesson, especially as I am getting to old to linger in regret. Get up, shake it off, lesson learned, move on.

Gaian Tarot

Still waters, not

 

Appearances can be unreliable. What we think we see with our eyes may not tell the whole story. Reminds of a parable, 'believe none of what you hear and only half of what you see.'  The water looks to have a gentle flow, but beneath the surface there are eddies and currents. A person or situation that seems placid may in fact have all kinds of chaos happening beneath the surface. Change can be like that, a beginning with restlessness. You can ignore and stay with what is familiar and predictable or go ahead and immerse yourself in the change and see where it takes you. 

Gaian Tarot

Nutrition

 

Yesterday I spoke about the chemicals I am ingesting from the medical prescriptions, but what about the other chemicals that I consume without thought or consideration. If I stop and take stock of all the foods I normally consume and consider their chemical composition, maybe I can help my body by reducing and or eliminating some of the foods I eat that are not good for my body at all. Sugar is my biggest issue and though I read and read some more of sugar's corrosive effects on my body,  I still keep grabbing the candy bar. Time to really give nutrition the complete attention it deserves and stock up on apples to replace the candy collection. Nutrition may just be my 'Word of the Year.'  A worthy study for a Page of Pentacles.

The Gaian Tarot

Note to Self

 

I did not feel well yesterday, most likely the after effects of receiving my covid booster shot on Friday. I have always been resistant to taking the antidotes of big pharma; I can't get past what those chemicals are doing to my system. Sure there are benefits, but the unknowns of how they react with each other and with my body is what puts me off.  Now with covid, flu, high blood pressure, heart issues, I find I am taking more and more. Yee gads. I wonder if the ill feelings stemmed more from my mental reaction than a physical causation?  I have been journaling about how my body is doing since beginning the regimen of heart medications. It has not been good. I remind myself that for the time being they are necessary, but it is up to me to do something about the long term usage. Give total control over to the white coats and big pharma, or do some wonderful self-healing. I have gained some insights by tracking, using pen to paper.

Gaian Tarot ~ Joanna Powell Colbert

Shiver and Shake

 

Shiver and shake indeed.  It was quite frosty in the early morning hours whilst out viewing the Lunar Eclipse. Alas, I could not stay out during all the hours of the event. I kept returning inside to warm up, but did manage to stay up for most of the event and lots of time outside between 3:30-4:30 when most of the action was occurring.  Lovely.  Winter is on it's way, and this year I will try to be more accepting of the cold days ahead. The seasons turn so Winter helps me appreciate the warmer days more, and I know my bones do better in the warmer weather. Thankfully I have clothes aplenty to bundle up against the chill, whether watching a lunar eclipse or out for a quick jaunt. Winter will come and then go, and in the Spring I will be back out, seeing if I can catch a view of the May Lunar Eclipse of 2022.

Magical Messages from the Fairies

My own backyard

 

It has been overcast the last few nights, with nary a glance of Luna.  Tonight and all through the dark hours until morning the skies will clear and hopefully I can get a view of the Partial Lunar Eclipse between 2am and 5ish am.  My travel plans are to the backyard.  I will pack myself up in some very warm clothes and a coat, scarf and thermos of hot cocoa.  If your are out in the early morning hours tomorrow, listen for my howl on the breeze. My  howl will carry me out into the World.

Magical Messages from the Faires

The brass ring

 

Everyone once in awhile you have to have sweetness poured into your life.  This deck is that way. Every card is sweet and lovely.  I wonder what happened to Doreen Virtue. She had some wonderful messages presented through her cards. I guess we each have to find our way even when our Desire is Within our Reach, we still have to grab a hold when it shows up.

Magical Messages from the Fairies

Claimant

 

I wonder why I lay ownership to so many things that no longer serve me. Things that have no part or parcel to my life, but still they are part of my collective consciousness. How many wrongs have been dealt to me and how many have I handed out to others? Even years later I still cycle the scenairos in my mind. Can I let them go or have they become so entwined in my sense of self that I would not know how to be me without them?

Magical Messages from the Fairies

Youthful Energy

 I am always amazed at the abundance of energy available to children. Running, jumping, skipping, dancing, twirling. Ahh to be young we tell ourselves, all that energy.  Where does that energy go I ask myself now? Energy cannot be destroyed, maybe shaped, but it still exists. I wonder if the answer is that it is, not that the energy has left me, but more to the point, where my energy has shifted to. For me lately I realize that most of my energy is focusing on the past and considerations of the future. Energy goes where we focus.  Children for the most part live in the moment and that is why I think they have so much energy, they are present in the here and now, and so then is their energy.  If I can bring myself back to the here and now so then my energy, hopefully, will express in the here and now. 

Magical Messages from the Fairies

And why not?

 

A New Career? And why not?  Got to do something with my time.  Today I am the youngest I will be for the rest of my life, so why not.  I still do a bit of sales, but those days are just about behind me.  A question was posed the other day - What are the areas of your life that are not moving?  That stuck with me and I am still twirling it around in my prefontal cortex. My knees are a complete mess and nothing to be done about them till I get off the blood thinners, which will be another six months or so.  Learn something new and make a go of that, a useful way to spend my days.

Magical Messages from the Fairies ~ Doreen Virtue

Comfort when needed

 

This knight seems relatively unscathed as he returns from his patrols. Some battle scars are not visible to others.  The remembrance of an incursion and body wounds healed, are not always obvious.  The hurt doesn't always show but painful memories linger in the Nine of Wands.

Thank goodness I have Kitty to come home to at the end of those days that I still work.  She doesn't have thumbs so she can't open the door, but she awaits on the other side.

Marco Polo Tarot

Core beliefs

 

There are all manners of living beings in the world. Don't discount those that do not fit into our preconceived view point. Fear can block us and then we miss out on so many people, places, and things. We are the World.

Marco Polo Tarot

Steady on

 

This is a good reminder to keep my emotions in check so I remain steady and seated in the saddle.  Won't get far if I fall off on my way to wherever the day takes me.  

Marco Polo Tarot

Our gorgeous neighbor

 

This past Sunday I had happened to glance up and out at the evening sky and beheld the most fantastic view of Venus and the Crescent Moon. I went outside so that I could hopefully be dusted with some of Venus's light magic. The planet shines so brightly that we often forget that it is not a star. She is our nearest neighbor not including our orbiting Moon.  Though not a Star I was filled with wonder and made my wish. Bright Blessings.

Marco Polo Tarot