Wednesday, November 13, 2019

Not sure

Not sure I have any connection to this card this morning.  Owls and Hearts and two keys.  The two keys are a bit interesting.  I went back through the fifty-two cards of this deck and about a third have some variation of the banner on the top of card, and none of them have keys hanging on those banners except this one.  Interesting that the artist put them there and then made no comment in the accompanied guide book. 
I am grateful that I have still have a inquisitive nature and can wonder about such things. 
Seven years ago today I had my spinal fusion. I am grateful that I am here today and all the days in-between.  My life altered immensely and challenges, there are lots of them.  I can't turn my head like those owls, but hey, there are lots of other things I can still do. So that is fabulous.

Tuesday, November 12, 2019


Becoming or Unbecoming?  Is the equine becoming a zebra or unbecoming?  Since I am unfamiliar with the giraffe or tiger pattern, I want to help replace those bits of zebra that have fallen away.  Is that a choice I should consider?  Possibly the zebra is adapting so it looks like a one of its predators, pretty ingenious survival technique. My interference would not be welcomed if that was the case.
Message to me today, allow what is, is, and be grateful for new and intriguing possibilities.  The reward might just be in the waiting.

Monday, November 11, 2019


Some days I am full of them. Big ones, small ones, little nagging ones. Questions.  Why ask why?  The need to know I guess.  The drive in most of us, to know more.  I don't pick up as many books anymore to find answers, mostly to entertain.  This morning I was looking over charts of the human anatomy, trying to figure out what is the place in my lower left back that is causing me extreme discomfort, it might be a itty bitty kidney stone, caused by my release of an outburst of anger the other day.  "pissed off" is a good term.  Guess it is lots of water for the next couple of days and positive affirmations to release my still seething anger. Another lesson, not necessarily in the books; realizing no one is worth self inflicted misery.

The Wisdom of the Oracle

Sunday, November 10, 2019

Spot check

A leopard can't change her spots, comes to mind in viewing this oracle card.  I had a brief conversation with my niece's companion yesterday, and he mentioned his contemplation of the drive to succeed. We talked a few minutes about the drive to be more, do more, have more. When it comes down to it, we are who we are.  We become more unhappy trying to be something others expect, hope, or want us to be. Even though I have been a bit unique from my others in my family, I have tried fitting in. A lot of struggles in life are to find the balance, for all of us.  It doesn't work.  I am going to really commit to finishing strong and be my own woman.  Thankfully I have time to still be the me of me.
To thine own self be true.

Wisdom of the Oracle, Colette Baron-Reid

Saturday, November 9, 2019

Pick up sticks

A warning for me today, not to over do. 
Like a sweater that is loaded with static electricity and things keep sticking to it, that's what this makes me think of.  Keep picking up more things that need done.  Leave 'em, let someone else pick them up. 

The Fountain Tarot

Friday, November 8, 2019

Cosmic doorway

An extra Major added in this deck, The Fountain Tarot.
It reminds me of a side view of the looking glass, not much substance, but whoa, when you step through, transportation to...
A Doorway to somewhere else.
The author gives us "a moment of cosmic clarity"  'outside and beyond'
There are days my cosmic clarity says I don't want to be a part of this madness on Earth, but that would be the easy way out.  Before I step through the doorway I need to ask myself, "what else can I do to leave the Planet better than when I came?"  Maybe today, a doorway will open and give me a clue.

The Fountain Tarot

Thursday, November 7, 2019

Woe is me

"slings and arrows of outrageous fortune"
Recently I have struggled with increased anxiety issues.  A month ago, while on vacation, I allowed fear and anxiety to overwhelm me and upon my return home, I have been considering how I might proceed with my future. Yesterday's draw of the Eight of Wands reminded me of my path forward and with today's draw of the Eight of Swords I understand that I have started to concede my future to my fears.  This has got to stop.  Easier said than done with episodes of post trauma stress, but there are things that can be done. 
There are no swords at my back in this depiction, suggesting that I step back from my situation and give myself some new options.  Choices, thankfully can be wonderful opportunities.  I am grateful I have the choice to still go my own way.

Wednesday, November 6, 2019

From here to there

A hundred or so years ago, most people barely traveled more than forty miles for home.  Cars and trains replaced getting there on your own two feet or by horse.  When I was seriously injured seven and a half years ago, I was told by those guys in white coats I would never drive again and that was after my legs regained feeling and movement and my eye site returned.  I am so very grateful for the extra days, by foot, by car, by plane; with friends, family, and under my own volition.  Most everyday I am grateful to have my mobility.  Things change as they will, but I will continue moving until I can't.  Not much cha-cha left, but a good deal of can-can keeps me going.

The Fountain Tarot

Tuesday, November 5, 2019


This Magician looks bored and appears to be taking magic for granted.
Don't do that.  When we lose appreciation for the wonders in the World, the Light goes out of us, or at least retreats and the shadows dim our joy.  This morning it is rainy and I started to complain and stopped myself and exclaimed, Yeah Rain! Flowers next Spring and fresh veggies from the garden because of rain, and the real joy is it is not snow.  So every cloud does have a silver lining, and that is where the Magic is, appreciation.

The Fountain Tarot

Monday, November 4, 2019


We can search the whole world over and then realize everything we really wanted, needed, or thought that we wanted and needed, we already had.  Dorothy had to go all the way to Oz to find out. 
Counting the blessings that have been bestowed upon us is the secret of the quest.  November is the month I spend more time in gratitude, daily; hourly sometimes.  I am doing much better all year long with recognizing all the bright blessings in my life.
"in my own little corner, in my own little chair, I can be whatever I want to be."  Cinderella ~ Rodgers and Hammerstein

The Fountain Tarot

Sunday, November 3, 2019

Sunday Funday

One of the most enchanting things to view is the glistening sunlight bouncing off the waves on the water at the beach, a river, stream, pond.  This morning the Sun is shining very brightly on this first day of Standard Daylight Time.  It is beginning the task of melting the frost on everything that's viewable from my window. 
I am very grateful for the Sun, for Life would not exist without it.
Happy Sunny Sunday to all.
Carolyn, sunrises, family, friends, Kitty, doggies, grass, food, Vitamin D, chocolate, sunsets, seasons, rain, clouds, cloud watching, warmth, beach vacations, daisies, all kinds of flowers, bumble bees, butterflies, morning bird song, fields of sunflowers, and lions, and tigers, and bears, oh my.  This list is endless to what the Sun and sunlight provides.

The Fountain Tarot

Saturday, November 2, 2019

Daydream Believer

Daydreaming is the stream of consciousness that detaches from current external tasks when attention drifts to a more personal and internal direction. This phenomenon is common in people's daily life shown by a large-scale study in which participants spend 47% of their waking time on average on daydreaming. ~Wikipedia

Pretty sterile description of something that can be so magical and fun.  I am grateful for my imagination, even the for the times that I end up in anxiety mode.  Life would not be so interesting if I couldn't daydream.  Choosing from one of the seven cups and wondering what if...lots of fun. Today, being Saturday and I am not working I think I will dream about riding about in the Chariot that is attached to those dragonflies the other day.  

The Fairy Tarot.  Doreen Virtue & Radleigh Valentine

Friday, November 1, 2019

Way back when

This is where it begins, our views on the world.  This is where our parents shape who we become and what we will think, do, and say.  Some of the information is great, some not so much, and some, old out-dated perceptions, passed down generation to generation.