Self-beliefs

 

Holding 'Your Space' can require some discipline. Sometimes we have to do what we have to do.

Fairy Tarot

Self prophecy

 

It can be difficult to admit that we choose to define ourselves by the pain we feel. We lament about the wrongs we have suffered. I watch others and think, 'well, you brought that on yourself,' then I get to thinking what about my own messes?  Same thing. I wonder if we are so bored sometimes we do not make things difficult just to shake things up?

Rider Waite-Smith Tarot

We decide

 

Just about the time we think we have it all under control and things are going pretty smoothly for us, whomp, Life deals us another situation. Something that challenges us, something that makes us doubt ourselves. Yes, Life does throw us a curve ball here and there, the Wheel spins and things change and sometimes it is our own doing that undermines us. We don't trust the good times or we get bored and need a new challenge. I wonder about this gal; is she putting that last wand up or taking it down in preparation?  Either way I fear for her and that blazing fire sparking and setting her clothing on fire. Is the Challenge within or without?

The Green Witch Tarot

Confrontation

 

Life goes along merrily until a day comes when we may need to confront a challenge to the way we think, feel, or do. Uncomfortable to look our fear in the eye and say, "no more". Those 'whys' of our life can be unpleasant to deal with, but who guaranteed life was easy? Today is the first day of Spring on a Sunday, the first day of a new week and new season. A very good time to get a start on a new way of living my life.

Enchanted Forest ~ Lunaea Weatherstone

Peace

 

It's a cold Saturday morning here. Two inches of snow fell overnight and with the windchill outside, it is a balmy 15°. Time to get up and face the day. Did okay with the other six days this week, no reason not to get up and get going on day seven. I haven't been painting many rocks of late, but last few days I have painted and placed a few yellow rocks with Peace painted in blue. Maybe I will spend part of my day painting rocks to place the seven days of next week. Peace!

The Fountain Tarot

"Battle"

 

Who needs this? I have been one that always did enjoy a lively debate, not so much anymore.  I rather be tip-toeing through the tulips these days. Thank goodness Spring is around the corner and I can do exactly that.

This image this morning recalls John Travolta playing the Archangel Michael in the movie "Michael" when he triumphantly calls out "Battle" when spotting a bull in a pasture. 

Rider Waite-Smith Tarot

Power play

 

There are times to wait and time to get busy and get things done. Waiting around for another to okay a project gives them the power. Want it done? Do it. Own it. Go for it!

Scorpio Sea Tarot

Intriguing

 

This group presented themselves this morning, the cards kind of stuck together. I noticed that on either side of central card the images are insubstantial, not fully present, like whispers of past and future.  I wonder if most of my daily struggles are based on those whispers, shadows of things past and not yet or may never materialize?  Doing some research since my cardiac event, it seems stress is the major contribution factor, more than genetics or diet to arterial plaque. Can all those thoughts and concerns of yesterday and tomorrow be what really clogged up my arteries?  Bogged me down in fight or flight? Something to consider.

The Fountain Tarot

Thanksgiving

 Thanksgiving Day.  A good time to remember the blessings we enjoy. Be on the offensive of who and what we have in our lives instead of the defensive, worrying and counting the 'what ifs' and lack. 

Happy Thanksgiving.

Don't go looking

I don't have to go looking for trouble, it usually finds me.  Then again lots of good fortune comes my way as well.  There is balance in that.  As the Wheel turns it could land me just about anywhere, there is adventure in that.  Today if confronted with discord I will stand my ground and keep my place and not get caught up in the fray.  Thankfully I have learned when to"'hold 'em and learn when to fold 'em and sometimes just walk away"  Kenny Rodgers - The Gambler

Moving forward

Preparedness.  My body has sent me a clear signal that change is needed, required, nay I say, demanded.  I am a sugar addict and the last couple months it has seemingly been out of control.  Seemingly I say, because I choose what goes in.  I am going to sort through the kitchen and remove that which does not serve my body well.  Keep that which does and start really paying attention to what goes in my body, grocery cart, and cabinets.  I am my best caretaker or not. I have to stand for me.






The Green Witch Tarot

Against all comers

"Well I am older now, but still runnin' against the wind" Against the Wind, Bob Seger and the Silver Bullet Band

That's what I heard with the draw of this Seven of Wands.  There have been lots of things I have let go of as I move deeper into my life days, and some things I cling to.  I work with those that have a need to be right and I find that they are a mirror to me.  The difference of course is that I am right.  Ha! Well it is starting to wear, they want to be right, the one on top of hill, I think I will just humor myself and let go of the post I have taken up for years.  You wanna be right, 'sure, fine, go ahead.'
oops, did you hear it "fine" - be careful when you hear a woman say "fine"


The Linestrider's Journey Tarot

Revisit

You remember; the celebration in the Six of Wands, when you were touting those accomplishments. You did well.  But did you?  Cause here they are, back.  Doubts, fear, worry, anger, second guessing, and the oh-my's.  Just about the time we think we have things in hand and ready to move along, we have to defend our choices and decisions. Do we? Who do we need to defend ourselves too?  Our biggest critic, me, myself, I.   Put away the self-flagellation and continue up and along the chosen path.






The Fountain Tarot

Sake

Arguing for the sake of arguing.  I think this is the trap I get myself into sometimes.  The battle is not without but within.  I can, yes I can! Suppose I can't?  Do I beat myself up because I failed myself, or what I think I failed at?  Do I continue as though nothing is wrong; so as to make others more comfortable?  I do everything to make myself and others think things are alright. Who am I kidding.  I think I learned that lesson from my Father.  "You want something to cry about, I'll give you something to cry about." Brutal.


"The deeper the cry, the more clear the choice." Mark Nepo




Rider Waite-Smith Tarot

Intangible

Intangible: unable to be touched or grasped, not having physical presence.  Intangible.  I came across this word earlier whilst reading and it appears evident in this view of the Seven of Wands.  Those things that we thought were real or worthy now seem of direct contradiction to myself.  The year of 2018 is at its end, as I move along and up the staircase to 2019, what are those things within me that need to be cast off and left in the old year. Lots of battles we fight are never seen by others, we keep our fear internalized.   Feelings and thoughts, hopes, and despair that no longer serve.  Away with you.





The Fountain Tarot

Six and Seven

Six and Seven, all good girls go to heaven. 
"Bad girls get to go everywhere else"- Mae West
Whatever the day brings I am going to stand my ground.  Call me misbehaved, fine by me.












The Goddess Tarot

Pair of Sevens

Interesting, another draw of a Seven.  I am always curious about coincidences and other repeating notifications.  The Universe is always in action, I just have to be aware enough to catch the signs.  The most obvious is 'striking while the iron is hot' which alludes back to those coincidences.  If I get a notice from the Universe that it is the time and moment I will take action.
There is the Fall harvest of grain in the backdrop, which is worrisome that the work with fire is so close.  Something to think on this rainy Monday.  Fall has arrived in my area of the country, which brings the rain, the autumn days of coolness and long nights, pumpkin everything, leaves shedding their greenness for gold and red splendor, geese on the wing; oh how I love Autumn.



The Gaian Tarot

Tinnitus

Ready to step down, walk away.

I have been working the better part of 45 years and if you include paper delivery and corn detasseling, it is more like 50.  I am tired of standing my ground and hanging in there.  That fox and goose making threatening and loud noises are the ones in my head saying "never give in."  I would like to have a quiet two weeks where my phone was not ringing or people demanding my time and attention...But then when that does happen as it had  during the economic down-turn, ten years ago, I was desperate that anyone would 'honk' at me, call me please...Never satisfied, never happy.  At least while I listen to noises of doubt and fear in my head.



The Linestrider's Journey - Tarot

Did you hear that?

Musica Universalis

Ahh the wonder and joy of harmony, until someone comes along and wants to disrupt the easy flow of things.
The LWB warns that "when the card appears, the individual needs to remain heroic in facing challenges and disruptions imposed upon the creative life."  Well I don't get that from this card, maybe the RWS but this seems more like the Music of the Spheres filtering down through the gates that separate above and below.  Have you ever had a day when from somewhere distance a soft and lyrical sound drifts around you and you know it is a celestial moment? Lovely.




Celestial Tarot - Kay Steventon and Brian Clark

Enough I say!

I will go this far and no further.

Have you ever noticed that a person or peoples can really appreciate your original and unique personage, thought, or dress and then in in earnest they set out to change you, so you can conform.  The old mirror and match mentality.  Oh how we like people to be just like ourselves.  Boring. 

"You first took a little step off the path to avoid some rocks. For a while, you walked along the path but then you wandered out a little way to step on softer soil. Then you stopped paying attention as you drifted farther and farther away. Finally, you found yourself in the wrong city wondering why the signs on the roadway hadn't led you better."  Bradon Sanderson quoted from The Emperor's Soul