No Lingering Allowed

 

We all find ourselves here from time to time. And yes we are allowed the time to grieve, and cry, and piss and moan. Then comes the point we have to move on. The sorrow will be a part of us always, and shapes the way we move forward, but move forward we must.  

The Gaian Tarot

The mirror has two faces

An old childhood trauma has resurfaced in my awareness; something I thought I had have forgiven and reframed in my memories. A somewhat casual remark the other day by a family member triggered the awareness that the incident indeed is not forgotten, or reframed, or released. It still hurts and is still, these fifty-seven years later upsetting.  The balance I thought I had secured within me is out of kilter. The mirror of my awareness has two faces.

The Gaian Tarot

Sun-day

 

Hopeful that the drawing of The Sun today is an omen for a turn for the good with this little cold that wants to take hold.  Though chilly with a forecast in the low forties today, there should be clear and sunny skies. I think I will find a spot by the window and soak up those lovely rays and hope they chase away the sniffles.  

The Gaian Tarot

Meow to Roar

 

Today may be a really good day to gather myself and my some new ideas and thoughts that have begun to take hold and figure out what needs to happen next. Focus that great energy of new thought patterns and put some emotional ump behind them and sort out the details. The new year is within sight. 

Baby kitties can become big wonderful cats.

Small ideas can blossom into wonderful futures.

The Gaian Tarot

Possibilities

 

There are times we can become so focused, enchanted with the way things are, we forget to be open to the all possibilities that are around us. The World as well as ourselves are a wonder worth exploring. I am looking forward to my day with all the promises it offers.

The Gaian Tarot

Bright Blessings

 

Today I am Thankful.

Most days I am. Every little thing I am going to try to be thankful today. It is raining, so I am very thankful it is not snow. I am going to my brother's place, for Thanksgiving dinner and I am thankful for family time and all the bounty on his table, and I don't have to cook a bit of it. My sister-in-law won't allow me any time in her kitchen so I am thankful I don't have to do dishes.  There is Kitty. Electricity to heat my home, Lights to read by and to warm the water at the ready at the sink. Thankfully there are those that work at the companies that get the electricity and water delivered to my home. Clothes and cute socks for my feet. A refrigerator and shelves with food handy for my taking. Customers that chose me to help them with their decision to move, so I have currency to take care of my home and needs. So much more; the list spirals out into eternity.   Happy Thanksgiving

Last night, Today

 

I had an uncomfortable, reveling two-part dream last night. There was betrayal of trust, loss of faith, and the second-part, retribution. Watching the reel of the dream I realized all the participants were supposed to be facets of me. The little things I do to myself that undermine me, and then the mind revealing thoughts of how I punish myself with the antics I participate in, mostly in my thoughts. I wonder if indeed, I have been my own best and worst enemy, per se?  I guess I can dwell on all those missteps and continue to focus on regret or for once in all just let it go and move on. A valuable lesson, especially as I am getting to old to linger in regret. Get up, shake it off, lesson learned, move on.

Gaian Tarot

Still waters, not

 

Appearances can be unreliable. What we think we see with our eyes may not tell the whole story. Reminds of a parable, 'believe none of what you hear and only half of what you see.'  The water looks to have a gentle flow, but beneath the surface there are eddies and currents. A person or situation that seems placid may in fact have all kinds of chaos happening beneath the surface. Change can be like that, a beginning with restlessness. You can ignore and stay with what is familiar and predictable or go ahead and immerse yourself in the change and see where it takes you. 

Gaian Tarot

Nutrition

 

Yesterday I spoke about the chemicals I am ingesting from the medical prescriptions, but what about the other chemicals that I consume without thought or consideration. If I stop and take stock of all the foods I normally consume and consider their chemical composition, maybe I can help my body by reducing and or eliminating some of the foods I eat that are not good for my body at all. Sugar is my biggest issue and though I read and read some more of sugar's corrosive effects on my body,  I still keep grabbing the candy bar. Time to really give nutrition the complete attention it deserves and stock up on apples to replace the candy collection. Nutrition may just be my 'Word of the Year.'  A worthy study for a Page of Pentacles.

The Gaian Tarot

Note to Self

 

I did not feel well yesterday, most likely the after effects of receiving my covid booster shot on Friday. I have always been resistant to taking the antidotes of big pharma; I can't get past what those chemicals are doing to my system. Sure there are benefits, but the unknowns of how they react with each other and with my body is what puts me off.  Now with covid, flu, high blood pressure, heart issues, I find I am taking more and more. Yee gads. I wonder if the ill feelings stemmed more from my mental reaction than a physical causation?  I have been journaling about how my body is doing since beginning the regimen of heart medications. It has not been good. I remind myself that for the time being they are necessary, but it is up to me to do something about the long term usage. Give total control over to the white coats and big pharma, or do some wonderful self-healing. I have gained some insights by tracking, using pen to paper.

Gaian Tarot ~ Joanna Powell Colbert

Shiver and Shake

 

Shiver and shake indeed.  It was quite frosty in the early morning hours whilst out viewing the Lunar Eclipse. Alas, I could not stay out during all the hours of the event. I kept returning inside to warm up, but did manage to stay up for most of the event and lots of time outside between 3:30-4:30 when most of the action was occurring.  Lovely.  Winter is on it's way, and this year I will try to be more accepting of the cold days ahead. The seasons turn so Winter helps me appreciate the warmer days more, and I know my bones do better in the warmer weather. Thankfully I have clothes aplenty to bundle up against the chill, whether watching a lunar eclipse or out for a quick jaunt. Winter will come and then go, and in the Spring I will be back out, seeing if I can catch a view of the May Lunar Eclipse of 2022.

Magical Messages from the Fairies

My own backyard

 

It has been overcast the last few nights, with nary a glance of Luna.  Tonight and all through the dark hours until morning the skies will clear and hopefully I can get a view of the Partial Lunar Eclipse between 2am and 5ish am.  My travel plans are to the backyard.  I will pack myself up in some very warm clothes and a coat, scarf and thermos of hot cocoa.  If your are out in the early morning hours tomorrow, listen for my howl on the breeze. My  howl will carry me out into the World.

Magical Messages from the Faires

The brass ring

 

Everyone once in awhile you have to have sweetness poured into your life.  This deck is that way. Every card is sweet and lovely.  I wonder what happened to Doreen Virtue. She had some wonderful messages presented through her cards. I guess we each have to find our way even when our Desire is Within our Reach, we still have to grab a hold when it shows up.

Magical Messages from the Fairies

Claimant

 

I wonder why I lay ownership to so many things that no longer serve me. Things that have no part or parcel to my life, but still they are part of my collective consciousness. How many wrongs have been dealt to me and how many have I handed out to others? Even years later I still cycle the scenairos in my mind. Can I let them go or have they become so entwined in my sense of self that I would not know how to be me without them?

Magical Messages from the Fairies

Youthful Energy

 I am always amazed at the abundance of energy available to children. Running, jumping, skipping, dancing, twirling. Ahh to be young we tell ourselves, all that energy.  Where does that energy go I ask myself now? Energy cannot be destroyed, maybe shaped, but it still exists. I wonder if the answer is that it is, not that the energy has left me, but more to the point, where my energy has shifted to. For me lately I realize that most of my energy is focusing on the past and considerations of the future. Energy goes where we focus.  Children for the most part live in the moment and that is why I think they have so much energy, they are present in the here and now, and so then is their energy.  If I can bring myself back to the here and now so then my energy, hopefully, will express in the here and now. 

Magical Messages from the Fairies

And why not?

 

A New Career? And why not?  Got to do something with my time.  Today I am the youngest I will be for the rest of my life, so why not.  I still do a bit of sales, but those days are just about behind me.  A question was posed the other day - What are the areas of your life that are not moving?  That stuck with me and I am still twirling it around in my prefontal cortex. My knees are a complete mess and nothing to be done about them till I get off the blood thinners, which will be another six months or so.  Learn something new and make a go of that, a useful way to spend my days.

Magical Messages from the Fairies ~ Doreen Virtue

Comfort when needed

 

This knight seems relatively unscathed as he returns from his patrols. Some battle scars are not visible to others.  The remembrance of an incursion and body wounds healed, are not always obvious.  The hurt doesn't always show but painful memories linger in the Nine of Wands.

Thank goodness I have Kitty to come home to at the end of those days that I still work.  She doesn't have thumbs so she can't open the door, but she awaits on the other side.

Marco Polo Tarot

Core beliefs

 

There are all manners of living beings in the world. Don't discount those that do not fit into our preconceived view point. Fear can block us and then we miss out on so many people, places, and things. We are the World.

Marco Polo Tarot

Steady on

 

This is a good reminder to keep my emotions in check so I remain steady and seated in the saddle.  Won't get far if I fall off on my way to wherever the day takes me.  

Marco Polo Tarot

Our gorgeous neighbor

 

This past Sunday I had happened to glance up and out at the evening sky and beheld the most fantastic view of Venus and the Crescent Moon. I went outside so that I could hopefully be dusted with some of Venus's light magic. The planet shines so brightly that we often forget that it is not a star. She is our nearest neighbor not including our orbiting Moon.  Though not a Star I was filled with wonder and made my wish. Bright Blessings.

Marco Polo Tarot

Waiting for your ship

 

When it is time to go, it is time to go.  We want to wait for the perfect moment to launch ourselves, but most of the time that perfect moment does not present itself.  Waiting too long bogs us down, doubts arise and we remain anchored in our indecision.  When our ship comes in, get on in and get on with it.  Change is scary, staying stuck can be a nightmare.

Marco Polo Tarot

Permission slip

 

You never know what good thing will happen if your are brave enough to be all you all the time.

Go ahead, chuck the shroud of conformity. 

Be yourself, everyone else is taken.

Marco Polo Tarot

Empress power

 

Later this afternoon I am going over to a couple of friend's home and they are grilling out. We are expecting a lovely November afternoon and just a few hours gabbing on the back porch enjoying each other's company and a nice meal.  I think I will pick up a bouquet of flowers. Empresses All! 

Marco Polo Tarot

Click my heels

 

After Seek and find yesterday this Knight of Pentacles has come along and shows me that I don't have to go far and wide on my search when most of what I am searching for is close at hand.  There is work and discovery right in our own backyard, our own Gardens of Life. Dorothy discovered that and returned to Kansas.  There is no place like home.

Marco Polo Tarot

Seek

 

Seek and you shall find.  Now is the time for me to ask myself if there is something missing in my life and then go look under every rock, check all the crannies and make sure I am watching for every possible lead.  Leave the what ifs behind and find what makes me happy.

Marco Polo Tarot

These days

 

So many have shared with me in my life. Many I appreciate. Some I could do without.  All are woven into the fabric of my being. In this last trimester of my days as Carolyn, I am becoming comfortable with who I am; Spending time in the Garden of My Life.

Marco Polo Tarot

Discernment

 We may be offered many things in life, that does not mean we have to accept them. Love, compassion, forgiveness are gracious gifts. Then there are the other things that must be observed with careful consideration. Hate, bigotry, contempt, and other's negative outlooks we do not have to recognize.  

Many times over the years I have listened and brooded over negative content spewed by others. In sales, we listen to too much of it to get along, go along with the clients. I was taught this go along with it, in those early years. I knew that was wrong, but went along.  Accepting other's negativity became my negativity. Maybe I didn't share in their believes but being party to it made them think they were in the right and I went home at the end of the day, knowing I was wrong to partake.  There is a Zen Proverb that the Budda said "if I do not take what is offered then who does it belong too?" or something along those lines.  

Marco Polo Tarot

Getting my attention

 

Seems like some news or advice will be received or delivered with a bit of force today. Suggestion being, is I best listen when it comes, just might be interesting. 

The Marco Polo Tarot

Delegate

 

Action or inaction is our choice to make.  Kingy boy here had to work his way up the ranks to his throne. His decisive actions prevailed and now he can sit back and enjoy himself while others pick up the work and carry-on. Celebrate your successes. Learn what you can from what didn't work and make changes. Hopefully we can all sit back and enjoy the 'fruit or our labors.'

Marco Polo Tarot (Tarot of the Journey to the Orient)  - Lo Scarabeo