Tuesday, June 12, 2018

Tinnitus

Ready to step down, walk away.

I have been working the better part of 45 years and if you include paper delivery and corn detasseling, it is more like 50.  I am tired of standing my ground and hanging in there.  That fox and goose making threatening and loud noises are the ones in my head saying "never give in."  I would like to have a quiet two weeks where my phone was not ringing or people demanding my time and attention...But then when that does happen as it had  during the economic down-turn, ten years ago, I was desperate that anyone would 'honk' at me, call me please...Never satisfied, never happy.  At least while I listen to noises of doubt and fear in my head.



The Linestrider's Journey - Tarot

6 comments:

  1. we spend a lot of our lives in feast or famine mode don't we. seldom of our own doing. Wonder how we'd manage if we really Did have control over our lives?

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    1. Feast or Famine indeed. That's the way of our thinking.

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  2. I would like to have a refresh button for my brain when it gets stuck in rehash mode.

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  3. Fear is a nasty companion and often calling Guilt and Regret to the party as well. I hope you can shove them out of the backdoor find some.peace and quiet for yourself...

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    1. Fear is my constant companion, even when I get it to shut up, I know it lurking behind the next turn or doorway.

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