Turning a corner

 

Yesterday I had a Reiki session. Had not had one since tornado recovery, when I knew I needed energy healing, as I was so fractured. With my heart a fluttering I made an appointment after leaving hospital a week or so back. It helped; I feel a bit more centered. My heart asked for help and what the heart wants the heart gets. One recommendation is doing some grounding work. The winter has had me locked away from the Earth; this week offers a glimpse of Spring with a few days of warmer weather. I will be out and placing my bare feet on the beautiful Earth. Bonding and Grounding. Releasing and Recharging. The harshness of winter is almost behind me.  

The Good Tarot ~ Colette Baron-Reid

Peace

 

artwork: Eszter Schall

"Battle"

 

Who needs this? I have been one that always did enjoy a lively debate, not so much anymore.  I rather be tip-toeing through the tulips these days. Thank goodness Spring is around the corner and I can do exactly that.

This image this morning recalls John Travolta playing the Archangel Michael in the movie "Michael" when he triumphantly calls out "Battle" when spotting a bull in a pasture. 

Rider Waite-Smith Tarot

Tinnitus

 

I have been having lots of issues with tinnitus and have for a good portion of my life.  Number of causes, most of them add to the original source I think, being whacked upside my head as child. They discovered when I switched form parochial to public school in the eight grade, that my right ear only had about eight percent hearing ability. So many tests, I still hear those high chimes that tested my range. Loud tv, radios, head trauma, and even high blood pressure added to the distress of my audio system. I now notice it becomes more pronounced when I have my heart flutters. I looked up in Louise Hays' book "You Can Heal Your Life" for possible causation and cure and reasoning is 'failure to listen' and new thought pattern 'I trust my Higher-Self and listen with love to my inner voice.'   Definitely Moon anthology. 

The Moon Reversed last week and now again, my intuition is howling for me to pay attention.

Rider Waite-Smith Tarot

Eight Wednesdays

 

There is a theme this week with the cards, Pentacles Wands Pentacles Wands Pentacles. Polarity of stability and impetuousness.  If the Journey through the Tarot starts with The Fool it concludes with The King of Pentacles. Live and Learned. I joined a group at the Y last night for an eight week journey of review of health and diet. I will take this Three of Pentacles as acknowledgement that this get-together with others will be a good thing. 

The Rider Waite-Smith Tarot

Lighten up

 

Is the conflict real, or staged to get our attention?  This is what goes on inside my head lately. Wonder what happened to my general frivolity? Forget how I interact with the world and pay attention to how I am interacting with myself. Fun times or not, I can choose. Not everything has to be difficult.

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Causation

 

The winter has taken its toll on me. I find myself isolating more and more. Working barely part-time, my refusal to embrace the cold, and my fear and anxiety for my fragile heart, overwhelming me. I had several calls yesterday reminding me there are others that have their problems and issues and needed someone to talk to. Listening, helping, assisting others may just be the antidote to help what ails me. Me, I ail me. 

Rider Waite-Smith Tarot

Listen for it

 A message from the King of Pentacles yesterday. Waiting to hear.

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Quiet Contemplation

 I am at that point in my life that I can slow down and let things flow to and from me. No need to rush to get somewhere, I am there. All well and good and yet my mind still races. All kind of mundane things, nothing much of importance and I ask myself what is so fearful in the quiet of my mind? Go, go, go. Do, do, do. All the years of going and doing are not where I need to focus anymore. 

"In my own little corner, in my own little chair I can be whatever I want to be. On the wings of my fancy I can fly anywhere and the world will open its arms to me." ~ Cinderella - Richard Rodgers

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IDK

 

I am perplexed by The Moon revealing itself in reverse. How has this  happened when I keep cards in the upright position in all decks? Here at the end of a 'luny' week; several days in hospital, instead of a day because of the massive amount of need of the many. Did the Full Moon Wednesday add to the many's trauma? People being treated in the interior hallways of the Emergency Center, for lack of beds and skilled professionals. Did my fears and anxiety add to my topsy-turvy state of mind?

I consulted Rachel Pollacks description from her book 'Seventy-Eight Degrees of Wisdom'  "the Moon reversed signifies a disturbance. The person does not wish to turn away from the solar side, and may try to fight off the Moon by a great deal of activity. The Moon, however, will not be denied, and the fears can get stronger the more we fight it. The psyche, operating under its own laws for its own reasons, has turned to the Moon. If we allow ourselves to experience it, the fears will turn to wonders and the gateways open to adventure."

Rider Waite-Smith Tarot

Emulate

 

My last post on Tuesday I mentioned the little things that irritate. Well I guess I let some of those little things balloon along with a few other things that day, enough so that my heart went to fluttering. Maybe a few times here and there since the cardiac event, but Tuesday evening was a prolong session, enough so that anxiety began to build and the next thing, I took myself to the hospital, where I stayed for a few days to have tests. When all the images that could be taken of my heart were completed my wonderful heart is doing fine, actually has strengthen since the 'event.' Good news indeed, but a lesson that I am still working on, releasing the resistance and tossing the fear and anxiety. The Queen of Wands is an excellent person to emulate. Cool and composed. Do what is best for me and honor that. Take care of me and my lovely heart and my companion,  Kitty.

Rider Waite-Smith Tarot

Let 'em go

 

"People are looking for trouble today. Try not to give it to them! It's likely at least one person is picking a fight in order to test your limits. Show them you can outlast them."  ~ Quoted from Daily Horoscope.  

This last week people have been a bit irritating. Just little things said or done that is getting under my skin.  Maybe today's warmer weather and sunshine will help. Take those little jabs and leave 'em out in the Sun. 

Rider Waite-Smith Tarot

I wonder

 

The Fire King is a person of action, yet this guy sits.  His energy attracted many and then their wants and needs encouraged him to take the lead. It was all fine and dandy, made him feel important, and then their need of him to lead, bogged him down, trapped him. Often he sits and wonders if he can return to freedom days of the Page. At one time he thought the throne was where he wanted, needed to be. Now he remembers his days of past when he enjoined the day. Can he get up and lay the Wand of Importance to the side and walk away? Sometimes we can and sometimes we cannot. Another choice.

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Head 'n Heart space

 

The other day I had a remembrance of a nasty comment made about me when I was about eighteen. Forty-seven years is a long time to hold on to such spiteful jab made by another. Teenagers mocking others, shoring up their own self-esteem. Returning to old thoughts and allowing them to play havoc does me no good. Those were old lessons of youth; fear and worry, self-worth and self-importance, lessons no longer of importance to me at sixty-five. When I come up against those old memories I try to review them for what they were and dismiss them. as they are old thoughts that need to be let go of. Just like clutter-clearing my house, old thoughts and emotions need reviewed and then let go of.  Returning to those past thoughts and feelings is now an opportunity to clean up my emotional heart and head-space.

Rider Waite-Smith Tarot

Go with the Flow

 The Empress reminds me today of a quote of Rumi's, one that I recently posted here and reread often.

"When I run after what I think I want, my days are a furnace of stress and anxiety; if I sit in my own place of patience, what I need flows to me and without pain. From this I understand that what I want also want me, is looking for me and attracting me. There is a great secret here for anyone that can grasp it."

Rider Waite-Smith Tarot

Brainstorming

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Everyone is gathered to brainstorm about the future. What is next, where to live, what do we want to accomplish? Success can be found in the details. The 'good life' mostly requires planning. Yes there are those that seem to be naturally lucky, but mostly, if we want to change or get some place we have to act. Plan to do and plan on doing.  We can come up with all kind of great ideas but we still have to put our plan into action, step through the gateway and get on with getting on.

I have a four hour Zoom Continuing Education class that starts at 9am. I guess for now I am planning on continuing my sales career.

Rider Waite-Smith Tarot

A Good Day

 There are times at the end of a day, I say to myself,  "That was a good day." Might have been a good day with family or with friends or spending a cold chilly day with Kitty and a good book. There may have been a compliment, a smile, maybe something new learned. My father used to say if you learned something new that day, that was a good day. Today I finalize a sale with clients that are buying a very lovely home, and I get coins for my pocket, indeed a good day. The income will keep Kitty and me in treats and add a little more to my coffers, indeed, a good day. There is a saying that 'any day above ground is a good day' I disagree. Not all days are good, but enough of them are enjoyed to want to stick around and appreciate the ones that come my way.

It is a Good Day to have a Good Day!

Rider Waite-Smith Tarot

Encouragement

There are times when we could all use some assistance to get us back up and on our feet. A bit of a push to get us going again.

Encouragement: The action of giving someone support,confidence, hope.

"I get by with a little help from my friends" ~ Beatles or Joe Cocker?

Rider-Waite Smith Tarot

Alright now Carolyn

 

Seventy-Five percent. I realize that I spend the winter months moaning and groaning about the cold and always have my eyes cast to the promise of Spring. That's about Twenty-Five percent of my year not really being present in my life. In grading percentile that is about a C I am giving my life. YeeGads! As a student getting good grades was something I always worked toward. Went to class, did my studies, finished my homework, did extra credit, that was then not now. How much more meaningful my days would be if I applied myself everyday, take action on that what mattered most to me. I read a quote the other day "Bloom where you are planted" so maybe I can't bloom during the Winter's cold, but I can feed my roots and tend my soil.  Already we have about an hour more of daylight, just enough to start sending tender sprouts up. I can get behind that promise.

Rider-Waite Smith Tarot

A far green country

 

I am ready for Spring, I long for Spring. To lounge in the soft, new grasses, listen to the call of the birds announcing the day, cloud watching, and a gentle easiness to my life. Spring. For one reason or another I experienced a bit of anxiety last night. There was a tightness to my chest, and some trepidation to what the night would bring; even more so since I am iced in. Could I get out or could someone get in with the ice covered walk-way? All the more reason to look forward to warmer weather and the promises of Spring.

"White shores...and beyond, a far green country under a swift sunrise." Gandalf

I could live in that place.

Earth Wisdom Oracle Cards

Naysayers

 

If I was out for a lovely walk and came across a field of heads, I would most likely freak out and then get the heck out of there as quickly as I could. This image makes me think of talking heads and all the chatter and input we hear from others. Do this don't do that. Go here not there. Most everyone has an input or opinion. It's the voice that is within that we hear the most, and a lot of time the biggest naysayer in our life. The impasse I am at in my life is mostly because of the distractions I am allowing. TV, Myself, Others, Books, Electronics, all kinds of things to keep me from being in the moment. My biggest distraction at the moment is ice. 2 days thinking about the approaching winter storm, 1 day of watching the tv and more fretting, now another 2 days of slow, steady work getting a path out of home to drive or waiting 2 days for the Sun to do some of the work. Me, I am the cause and effect in my life.

Earth Wisdom Oracle

Light the Way

 

I have this 'stirring' within me to do something. What that something is is unknown to me.  Just out of my grasp. Travel, take an all out vacation? Make a residential move, a different home or a different state? Finally quit my sales job and spend time in meditation? I am in a holding pattern, waiting to talk to cardiologist in April for an update and that update to inform me as to when I can schedule my knee replacement. Now that I am thinking about it, it kind of seems I am waiting for permission from a 'white coat' which really chafes me. I don't think I have ever given a 'white coat' the authority over my life, but since my cardiac event, I have. Thinking on it, I believe that this is the revelation I need. Transformation indeed. Time to take back my power and start planning for a future that is there and get out of this holding pattern.

Earth Wisdom Oracle

Standing Stone

 

Midpoint marker, half way through Winter and on our way to Spring. Thank goodness. Here in my part of the country we are in for a winter-wallop tomorrow with  a prediction of ice and sleet.  Still the promise is there in the tips of daffodils pushing through the soil out in the yard. Spring is held in the promise of the lengthening daylight and those early Spring flowers trying to push through the frozen soil. On this day of Imbolc I will think about what I can do, at least within my my own home to herald the approach of Spring!

Earth Wisdom Oracle

Awareness

 

The other day I read a post from Sharon Salzberg that I have been pondering on.  She said she asked her meditation teacher  (and I am paraphrasing) why he started his practice? His response was so that he would notice the little blue flowers along the road. Awareness, how much do we miss because our minds are somewhere else, how much has been missed along our journey?  With today's New Moon and Imbolc tomorrow, it seems a very auspicious time to change things up, nothing dramatic, just a enough to open up my awareness of the world around me. The farther I travel on my path I realize how much of what seemingly ails and fails me is really my mind set. As those things fall away I have more time to notice and admire the little blue flowers along the way.

Earth Wisdom Oracle