Temptation

The higher octave of the fives, discord on a larger scale.  Yesterday I met my friend from the office that I hold my license at, for brunch. The company where I was working part-time inside sales for the last year, the one that drove me to bouts of anger and misery.  Gone now for three weeks, they want me back.  Yes, brunch was friends' for a few hours of conversation, but also to make a offer.  Did I encourage a bit, maybe, who doesn't like the feel of a bit of self importance.  Tempting, but why wait till it's too late.  I know the offer of inside sales is better for my nerve-damaged legs, but where will my legs take me if my mind is in the shadow areas? 



The Goddess Tarot - Kris Waldherr

The upper hand

I wonder where all the insecurities in Life come from.  I know my parents generation lived through the Great Depression and WWII and there parents before them the crossing from Europe and being a pioneer had to be a real struggle. We have so much.  So it is curious to me about the constant squabbles to have the upper hand. For a card of advice for me today is not to get involved in a skirmish.  Let someone else win or be right.  Who needs the aggravation. 
"You can be right or you can be kind; be kind." Wayne Dyer






The Gaian Tarot - Joanna Powell Colbert

1-2-3

Sometimes it is just about being.  Being in the moment.  Being with others.  Enjoying just being alive!  Everything doesn't have to have an means to an end.  Forget the planning, plotting, and preparing.  Just live in the moment and enjoy.










The Gaian Tarot

Wise Woman - Wise Words

"Suck it up buttercup" that's what I get with this Queen of Swords.  If she can sit on the snow and ice and barefoot, who am I to complain.  Makes me think of my Father and him shouting at us "you want something to cry about, I will give you something to cry about." Years later I realized he was a childhood victim, doing the best he could.  So I have tried to dry the tears and get on with it.  Still, some of that self-compassion might go along way. 








The Gaian Tarot

Awakening

Last evening I went to a 'Mindfulness Meditation' class on healing, lead by a Buddhist monk.  One take away was compassion for myself.  I have thought that one of my lessons from my previous trauma event was more compassion for others facing difficult times.  I realize that I need to offer that same compassion for myself.







The Gaian Tarot

Unburdened

Unburdened was/is the word I choose for 2018.  I have done some unburdening and there is still more to be done.  This forest fire scene reminds me of the utter devastation of the fires out west and the floods in the Carolinas. So much loss. Everything gone, well most everything. Unburdened? No. So much disruption. In my field of sales, there would be nothing left to sell, gone up in smoke. What would I do with the absolute end of a thing?  Where to begin again?







The Gaian Tarot

Pair of Sevens

Interesting, another draw of a Seven.  I am always curious about coincidences and other repeating notifications.  The Universe is always in action, I just have to be aware enough to catch the signs.  The most obvious is 'striking while the iron is hot' which alludes back to those coincidences.  If I get a notice from the Universe that it is the time and moment I will take action.
There is the Fall harvest of grain in the backdrop, which is worrisome that the work with fire is so close.  Something to think on this rainy Monday.  Fall has arrived in my area of the country, which brings the rain, the autumn days of coolness and long nights, pumpkin everything, leaves shedding their greenness for gold and red splendor, geese on the wing; oh how I love Autumn.



The Gaian Tarot

Looping

Repetition is not failure.  Sometimes we repeat the same choice over and over because we have to.  Just because we fall down doesn't mean we are failures, if so, no babies would ever get back up and learn to walk.  Falling down can be just part of the process.  Again, I get up and start over and if need be again and again, until I have it just right for me.







The Gaian Tarot - Joanna Powell Colbert

Equinox

Today marks the Autumnal Equinox, that seemingly equal place of day and light. This Hanged Man card brings this to mind.  Rising up from the dark and and experiencing the light.  Nothing lasts forever.  When we have traveled a path as far as it can go we can become stuck in place or choose to go inside and begin the journey of self discovery.   I do not often draw the Hanged Man, and since today marks a sacred spot in the calendar I did a spread for Fall and The Hanged Man is the end point of the spread, albeit, the outcome of the next three months.  I look forward to these days ahead.  I do not like the winter months, with the teeth chattering cold and expensive electric bills. Still, change allows me to experience, and that is what Life is all about.



The Fountain Tarot

Three Cheers

Last day of Summer and it will be the last day of ninety plus degree temperatures in our area.  That alone is worth celebrating.  Letting go of Summer and knowing the winter winds will soon arrive is bittersweet, but the Wheel turns from the longer days to longer nights.  Today will be a good day to count my Summer blessings.  To celebrate the Sun and look forward to...








The Fountain Tarot

Suspect suspense

Things left hanging in the balance, I am not fond of this.  This depiction of Justice is not right.  She holds the Scales of Balance in her right hand, untypical, and she is adding her support to the one side of the scale.  She has laid down her sword of truth and is prepared to advise based on her opinions and her truth.  But I guess we all
do this, decide a thing or course of action based on our own truths. 
I must trust my own intuition and not seek out answers from others.







Celestial Tarot

Duality

Duality or a bit of bi-polarism. I have been accused of being bi-polar in the past. I have trigger points that set me off.  I now understand them more as I have aged and worked on them.  Occasionally though, fear can take hold.  Given a choice today I will choose from the heart and not the mind.










The Celestial Tarot

Carp diem

"Gather ye rosebuds while ye may" from poem by Robert Herrick
I quoted this same expression several weeks back and have heard the expression in my head several times in the last few weeks.  Coincidence?  Coincidence is a way the Universe tries to get our attention.  Summer is coming to a close.  Another week and a few days marks the Autumnal Equinox.  What thing(s) do i need to attend to before the winter winds blow?  What change is in the air?
What new venture do I harken to?





The Celestial Tarot

Platitude

"Speak softly and carry a big stick." - Theodore Roosevelt.

Anymore it is carry a 'selfie-stick'
This Four of Pentacles has nothing to say to me today.  So like the Rider Waite-Smith version, I will just sit quietly and hold on to my own for the day.

Review

It always fascinates me when I draw the same card days in a row. The Five of Wands showed again today so I followed up with the next card on deck.  Craters on the Moon. Interesting. All those impacts on the Moon and the Moon continues. With no atmosphere or water on the Moon those crater impacts show billions of years of activity of the cosmos.  Kind of makes my day to day skirmishes insignificant.




The Celestial Tarot

Unseriously

We can be our own best friend or our own worst enemy.  Fives all seem to be a fulcrum point, where we can tip the balance this way or that.  I can view day to day skirmishes as just little blips and not make them any more that they are.
No more mountain out of molehills.
Do it or just don't do it.
Sticks and stones.
If our mouths are full of food we cannot talk and if our minds are full of discontent we cannot reason properly.





Celestial Tarot - Kay Steventon and Brian Clark

Delusion

Mentally we can fill up all those cups with This n That.  Are the things we fill those mental cups with - fantasy or delusional?  No, just storage vessels for bits of information, feelings, hopes, joy, dreams, grudges, disappointments, regrets. Until we actually connect with the cup and bring it into reality, they are just our random feelings and perceptions







Sacred Circle Tarot

Ready or Not

The hour of discontent.  We know when something isn't right.  Still when the strike comes it hurts and bewilders.  Can we move beyond it, yes.  In fact we must.  The thing is finding that first step.  One foot in front of the other, we warily lift the foot and a singular moment that has us holding our breath, place it down, ready to begin our new steps and move beyond the loss, betrayal.  Ready or not.







The Sacred Circle Tarot

Providential

I met a knight in shining armor yesterday.  He had really bright red hair, wore jeans, and only twenty-one.  Still, he helped this would-be damsel in distress.  Getting ready to turn into area complex for work, my car signaled a low tire. Turning at the light, it went flat.  I pulled into the corner quick-mart and there was a young man with his business truck that did tires and hauling. Providential.  He was there because I needed him and the Universe opened a door and gave me a 'wink'
We talked while he worked and we both have nerve damage, his congenital, mine, tornado.  The thing is, there was something?  As I was walking up to the little store, I felt compelled to turn and wave goodbye. We have met before, but not in this time line.  Me sixty one, he twenty one and lives about forty miles across the river.  Thank you is what I have to say, until we meet again.


The Sacred Circle Tarot

Recognition

Giving credit for when credit is due. 

My word for today is Focus.  I did not know it was going to be "a word day".  Focus was the theme in my daily inspirational and the King of Wand reminds me to focus.  Intent and the focus of fire's  creativity got this king to this point.  Sometimes you have to recognize that someone else might be able to do something different and maybe better than yourself.  That's okay, leads to diversity, another good word.





The Sacred Circle Tarot

Sing me a song

When I was a younger girl I would help my Dad plant our vegetable garden. Well all the the kids in the family did, but I think I was the only one who really enjoyed it.  I don't get out and do much now, in fact I just put a few pots out every year.  One thing I still do is talk to my my flowers and sing little ditties to them and I believe they respond.  Today's suggestion in my book of daily reflections suggests to sing to ourselves. To sing and encourage growth and love and healing within.  My immediate go to song is "On a Clear Day" which inspires me with joy, happiness, and hope.  And like the rainbow in the backdrop, the promise of a clear day.




The Sacred Circle Tarot

"Labor" Day

Labor Day, the unofficial end point of Summer.  The days are quickly getting shorter as the Sun resists the horizon a bit more each morning and retreats sooner each evening.  I remember this day as an all out play day since school started the day after Labor Day when I was a young lass. It is going to be another 90° day here, a bit warm to play.  Still there is a grilled burger later today and a few card games, so all in all, a good day off.  Then anticipation for cooler days ahead.
Bright Blessings




The Sacred Circle Tarot

The only constant

Letting go of the last of my resistance. 
Yesterday I was talking with one of my sisters, the one that still smokes.  She said she was ready to try again. When I quit it was one the most difficult things I have done.  I tried many times before I managed to give them up.  Now, many years later, the struggle doesn't seem like it was that hard, the struggle softened by time. 
Letting go of something or someone whose time has passed is troubling, but once we can get beyond it or them, the change will do me/us good.
Change is in the air.




The Sacred Circle Tarot.  Anna Franklin - Paul Mason

Bitten

Recently I have heard myself describing another as"bat crap crazy" I knew she wasn't totally centered with herself, but working more closely with her this last year, I realized she is close to being unhinged. Help, I have tried.  Support, given.  Burned by her chaos, on more than one occasion.
Sometimes the only right thing that one can do, is move on.

The word bite is contained in bitten.Ouch.





SpiritSong Tarot - Pauline Cassidy