Woe is me

"slings and arrows of outrageous fortune"
Recently I have struggled with increased anxiety issues.  A month ago, while on vacation, I allowed fear and anxiety to overwhelm me and upon my return home, I have been considering how I might proceed with my future. Yesterday's draw of the Eight of Wands reminded me of my path forward and with today's draw of the Eight of Swords I understand that I have started to concede my future to my fears.  This has got to stop.  Easier said than done with episodes of post trauma stress, but there are things that can be done. 
There are no swords at my back in this depiction, suggesting that I step back from my situation and give myself some new options.  Choices, thankfully can be wonderful opportunities.  I am grateful I have the choice to still go my own way.

From here to there

A hundred or so years ago, most people barely traveled more than forty miles for home.  Cars and trains replaced getting there on your own two feet or by horse.  When I was seriously injured seven and a half years ago, I was told by those guys in white coats I would never drive again and that was after my legs regained feeling and movement and my eye site returned.  I am so very grateful for the extra days, by foot, by car, by plane; with friends, family, and under my own volition.  Most everyday I am grateful to have my mobility.  Things change as they will, but I will continue moving until I can't.  Not much cha-cha left, but a good deal of can-can keeps me going.



The Fountain Tarot

Presto!

This Magician looks bored and appears to be taking magic for granted.
Don't do that.  When we lose appreciation for the wonders in the World, the Light goes out of us, or at least retreats and the shadows dim our joy.  This morning it is rainy and I started to complain and stopped myself and exclaimed, Yeah Rain! Flowers next Spring and fresh veggies from the garden because of rain, and the real joy is it is not snow.  So every cloud does have a silver lining, and that is where the Magic is, appreciation.




The Fountain Tarot

Questing

We can search the whole world over and then realize everything we really wanted, needed, or thought that we wanted and needed, we already had.  Dorothy had to go all the way to Oz to find out. 
Counting the blessings that have been bestowed upon us is the secret of the quest.  November is the month I spend more time in gratitude, daily; hourly sometimes.  I am doing much better all year long with recognizing all the bright blessings in my life.
"in my own little corner, in my own little chair, I can be whatever I want to be."  Cinderella ~ Rodgers and Hammerstein



The Fountain Tarot

Sunday Funday

One of the most enchanting things to view is the glistening sunlight bouncing off the waves on the water at the beach, a river, stream, pond.  This morning the Sun is shining very brightly on this first day of Standard Daylight Time.  It is beginning the task of melting the frost on everything that's viewable from my window. 
I am very grateful for the Sun, for Life would not exist without it.
Happy Sunny Sunday to all.
Carolyn, sunrises, family, friends, Kitty, doggies, grass, food, Vitamin D, chocolate, sunsets, seasons, rain, clouds, cloud watching, warmth, beach vacations, daisies, all kinds of flowers, bumble bees, butterflies, morning bird song, fields of sunflowers, and lions, and tigers, and bears, oh my.  This list is endless to what the Sun and sunlight provides.

The Fountain Tarot

Daydream Believer

Daydreaming is the stream of consciousness that detaches from current external tasks when attention drifts to a more personal and internal direction. This phenomenon is common in people's daily life shown by a large-scale study in which participants spend 47% of their waking time on average on daydreaming. ~Wikipedia

Pretty sterile description of something that can be so magical and fun.  I am grateful for my imagination, even the for the times that I end up in anxiety mode.  Life would not be so interesting if I couldn't daydream.  Choosing from one of the seven cups and wondering what if...lots of fun. Today, being Saturday and I am not working I think I will dream about riding about in the Chariot that is attached to those dragonflies the other day.  



The Fairy Tarot.  Doreen Virtue & Radleigh Valentine

Way back when

This is where it begins, our views on the world.  This is where our parents shape who we become and what we will think, do, and say.  Some of the information is great, some not so much, and some, old out-dated perceptions, passed down generation to generation.