Tick Tock

"I'm late, I'm late for a very important date. No time to say hello, goodbye, I'm late..." Rabbit, Alice in Wonderland.
Lately it seems that I have some kind of Time-Table in my head.  Expectations of completion of something or another, and I am not getting things done in a timely manner.  Then I wonder whose time-table am I on?  For the most part no one really gives a care; so wrapped up in their own concerns and time-tables, they don't even noticed the ticking of my clock. Wasted, senseless worry.  I would be better off tying those concerns to a hot-air balloon and let the wind carry them away. The question would then be what would I spend my time on if not for worry? #!**$@!



Wisdom of the Oracle

Point of Light

This card does not speak to me.  The Oracle within the vision of one's Higher Self, the Higher Power, redundant.
I have a good sense of self, whether I like me or not, depends on the day and whatever seemed to happened in my dream time.  I never see myself in this realm or another,  as some floating, transparent, etheral being.  Maybe a "will-o'-the-wisp' but not some angelic looking wanna-be.  Some need the comfort of a fairy-godmother like being, and that's okay too.





Wisdom of the Oracle

Fork in the Road

This card has no ambiguity to it  Looking for a sign, this literally has a fork in the road.  Yesterday's Moon card showed a path and today I am given a definitive sign post.  So let the adventure begin.










Wisdom of the Oracle, Colette Baron-Reid

New Moon

After drawing the Moon I checked the calendar and today is the New Moon, so an appropriate draw for the day.  Water, yep lots of it today with rain forecasted on an off all day.  I seem to have focused on the falling yods beneath the Moon and yep, there is a meteor shower, the Eta Aquariids peaking tonight. Won't see it here because of the cloud cover and it is most visible in the Southern Hemisphere.  Even though I can't and won't see the Moon or the meteor shower doesn't mean I won't be effected.  Meteor showers always seem to stir something up in me when the Earth passes through the dust of a comet. So it is "a lets be kind to Carolyn" day.  If I hear those dogs howling this evening, well I am sure there will be a revelation accompanied by goose-bumps.
woo-woo stuff.

Own it

I occasionally sit and wonder 'what if'  This Queen of Wands this morning reminds me of reflection.  She seems to be looking off to left lost in a remembrance. I have made some 'not so right' choices in my life. Is there any point trying to figure out, what if?  What if I did go right not left?  Things may or may not have changed, there are some things I would change, others, nope.  If I changed one thing everything after could and most likely change.  Own it.  I am who I am and I am because of some of those choices. 
I just realized I use changed a lot in the above paragraph, so any Queen of Wands worth her salt has the gumption to get up and embrace change.
age, hang, can, cage, nag...words within change.
I can hang the worry of age, forget the doubts that nag at me, break free of the cage...change.
I still have fifteen hours today to do something different to effect change.

California Dreamin'

California is not the lotus land I have searched for. California Dreamin' by the Mamas and Papas is playing on the radio; so this draw seemed to play to the song.  Always dreaming of something else leads to dissatisfaction.  Trying to live somewhere else instead of right where I am has caused some of my gloominess, and that's on me.  Others trying to foist their ideas and wants on me is on them.
I am going to take a step back and look at the blackboard of choices and decide what really is a good choice for me.  Can't decide? I will try to choose two of the best, eliminate the others and go from there.

Suspicious

Do people give freely, not really expecting anything in return?  This has not been my experience. Well except that one time sevenish years ago.  Lots gave freely and helped me along; still mixed in the bunch were quite a number that acted humbly but had a hidden agenda.  They wanted accolades for their offerings and good deeds.  Makes one cautious and a bit jaded, and that is something I still have to work on.  Not always wondering what someone wants in return.  Today something given will be accepted and appreciated, or maybe better I will have the opportunity to gift to another. 
I like me better with a open sunny attitude.  The days in shadow are not where I want to live.